Ooo, thanks everybody for such a lovely warm welcome, internet hi fives all round!
Really appreciate each response, thanks for taking the time to wade through my post ;)
Clarity: “...are you still living with your parents, and making plans for your further education?” I’m late twenties and still living with parents, we get on well and it enables my savings to grow! :) I’m very fortunate to have found a job that I love with fantastically supportive colleagues who don’t yet know I’ve left the religion. You would all be delighted at the line of work I’m in but I daren’t say for fear of being recognised :(
OnTheWayOut: yes indeedy the song is exquisitely apt for our situations, so similar to a toxic relationship, thanks for the vid Billy the Ex, oh how I’d like to address the GB in person with that one line… ;D
Dis-Member: I feel your bitterness towards these people who think that without meeting attendance we’re going to be annihilated and yet aren’t motivated to care for us in even the smallest way! Can only assume they don’t actually believe any of it or are so selfish as to want nothing but their own salvation. Either way… Distance and contemplating alternative world views are the way forward, never act or speak to active JWs out of frustration and anger, it’ll all go to pot.
Jen1: it’s horrible to feel like you’re in no man’s land, neither a JW or a ‘normal’ person but something inbetween. Hang in there, I’m sure we’ll all figure this out together :)
Julia Orwell: the awakening process finally made Jeremiah’s words a reality for me “..it proved to be like a burning fire shut up in my bones and I got tired of holding in…” no matter how much you want to go back to ignorance and bliss, once you know, you know. Feeling lied to and abandoned sucks, crying myself to sleep and yelling at God were par for the course at first and then one day realised the world was still turning, life goes on and I should probably get out there and give something back!
All this support and encouragement is a heady experience, not used to such things lol, looks like I might just be able to tackle whatever madness is yet to come my way… ‘Apostates’ Assemble!
One Last Kiss x